Starting...
My original thoughts about writing really came about when I began reading other blogs. Some blogs were just fluff, and others were fully immersed in emotions and feelings in an attempt to what I see as the necessary means to get control over daily life. My favorite blogs are about family life, the triumphs and joys of just living. I consistently read this particular blog about a family's travels overseas for over 1 and 1/2 years, and I began to look forward to the next "chapter" of their lives. What a journey! To be able to eloquently put into words, daily tasks that all seem to connect themselves into what we call life. I have recently found out that she is trying to write a book - I cannot wait to see the end result! If I could only write like this...
My obsession with reading some other blogs becomes a little unhealthy for me on a personal level. I look at these writings for affirmation of my own thoughts - and I am usually not disappointed. When I read through them, my own personal experiences become part of the words, and I find myself frustrated when the two do not fit together. It is at that moment when I feel the greater need to "set myself straight" and journal it down. This is when I think it is emotionally unhealthy for me, so here this blogs serves a dual purpose - to help me work through these thoughts (so that I can sleep at night!) and to put into writing, my own thoughts and perceptions on my life and the events surrounding it.
I will try to provide an example: In a particular blog that I read recently, comments were said that I find very discouraging about people that I love the most in this world. Why do some people believe that life is all about the fairy tale and happy endings? That would be great, but sometimes life is what it is. Is it fair to drag another person through an emotional rollercoaster just so they can affirm verbally to you words that make you feel better - when it's really only for your own purposes? Is that right? And in hearing those affirming words - it makes the other person feel worse? As the affirming person, do you do this out of love for the person - because it is what they want or need to hear, and then you allow it to happen? Does this make getting through life easier for them, knowing they will carry this affirmation and hope that it will make a larger impact on their life? Will saying these words help that person move forward? If so, then it was worth saying those words, right? And is this an example of saying you love someone, no matter what?
Okay, let's make it more personal. I am a mom to three children and a step-mom to another . I love them to the ends of the earth. Would I say or do anything to make them feel better about themselves? My first knee-jerk reaction is to say "Yes! Of Course!" Then I take ten seconds to think about it. Actually, I don't think I would. When you become a parent, you always want what is best for your children, and sometimes it isn't always what they want to hear. AND it usually doesn't make them happy! These are things such as homework, curfews, rules, chores, etc. Sometimes it's just a conversation about something you feel strongly about, or disagree with. I find that I sacrifice a few of those "good feelings" in order to guide my children through the tough times. And tough times for them always includes those not-so-good feelings you give them from time to time. Sounds like a vicious circle, right? At the end of the day you hope that your parenting, while not always taken by your children as "nice", does make you feel better that you may have provided them with the skills necessary to get through life without you - cause we all know we won't be here forever! Now THAT is loving them no matter what! 
Okay - since this is my first "real" post - I apologize for writing in circles. I suppose I'll get better at this as I go along, and BOY, there are alot of unanswered questions! This journey will be about answering some of those, and I'm sure others as I come across them.
Thanks for listening.
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